i can never understand girls

Recently, she is angry at me for some things. Like me haven quit smoking, skip class blah blah blah. Till now she is refusing to reply my sms and answer my calls hai~~~~ Wei sum me che yang zi~~

To tell u honestly, i dunnoe whether i can meet up with her expectations or not. I am a imperfect person, but i really love her very much. I dunnoe whether i can take this rejection or not. For someone who lived with rejection all his life, love seems like so far away. But yet when love comes, it can be so hurting. I have never experienced much love in my life, i was so used to being alone that i was numb to many things. My heart hardened so much that i refused to accept God. What is love? Damned if only i knew the answer. Yet this love have taken its toll on me.

But last night something really interesting happened to me. Last night i was so frustrated tat i could not sleep. Den i opened my wallet and a card dropped out. It was those kind of cards tat members of my cell wrote to me saying God loves you blah blah blah.... Den i thought of God, wondering should i pray or not. Den i thought aiya heck care lar who cares!!! Den dunnoe y i go listen to the radio cos i hardly listen to the radio. That time i was scrolling the channels den i was shocked to hear 'holy holy holy' on the radio. i thought can't be cos the channel is UFM. For a moment i thought i tuned in to Heaven's channel. Den it was the chinese version of the christian song. It said about angels,love and heaven. i think maybe it is a divine concidence, God if u are hearing this please fix this for me.