Problems,problems,problems...

Recently a young member of mine church have a lot of problems. Problem with guys, problems with her christian life,problems with church. She just wanted to put down everything she is doing and want to lead the life that she wants.
What is the life that i want? To tell u the truth,i dunnoe. All i know is if i forsake the church and the things i am doing now, i will regret it later in life. Life should be without regrets, i regretted too much and ended up running circles in life.
We tried our best to talk to her, understand her, give her advice blah blah blah.As the new PM of Singapore said in his national day rally, the government can give you financial assistance and aid to poor Singaporeans but the only solution to get out of these problems is through Growth. I think her main root of the problem is the lack of faith and the only solution to this is through Growth.Of course it does not only applies to her, it applies to every living christian. Cos faith is the fuel of ur christian life, just like the car can't run without fuel, a runner can't run without energy.

In my life i have always walked around the mountain. Although the mountain is just right in front of me, i just choose to walked around it. I have always feared to go up because i know it will be a strenous and ardous journey. The darkness, the lack of air, sometimes a step is a torture. But then to have a spectacular view of the world and see God's works in life, the only way is up. The night before Martin Luther King's assassination, he said "Well, I don't know what will happen now. We've got some difficult days ahead. But it doesn't matter with me now. Because I've been to the mountaintop. And I don't mind. Like anybody, I would like to live a long life. Longevity has its place. But I'm not concerned about that now. I just want to do God's will. And He's allowed me to go up to the mountain. And I've looked over. And I've seen the promised land. I may not get there with you. But I want you to know tonight, that we, as a people, will get to the promised land. And I'm happy, tonight. I'm not worried about anything. I'm not fearing any man. Mine eyes have seen the glory of the coming of the Lord"

I am now trying to climb the mountain and see the promised land for myself. Many christians have climbed it and stuck halfway, not through the treacherous weather but due to their lack of faith. A mountain-climber worst nightmare is that they are neither up nor down, not due to the weather but due to their losing of will-power. As for the that member in my church, she is neither up nor down and we are trying to tell her to press on too to see the promised land.

As for me i am trying to get out of my dark and sad past, a dungeon that keeps me enslaved to the world. i want to defy the laws of the world and gravity to get on that mountain and climb to the mountaintop. As for my past, maybe i will divulge more on my nxt posting. So keep your eyes peeled for my blog haha.

Hey Ya

Finally i am getting a blog..... maybe i should use blogs to "communicate" with my church members hahaha....
wat shall i write? dunnoe leh maybe should write about last service....
Last wk i shared a testimony in church,cos a few weeks back i got embroiled into a lawsuit.
I received a letter from the court during SOP service. I tried my best to hide my anxiety during the service, i acted normal, seemed normal. It worked till the following sunday service.It was the crossover service and every intern went to share. At that time, i thought "will i lose the chance to cum to church?" "will these things burn up in flames?". When the pastor called for altar call, as people went for the call,i stared at the the people kneeling. I asked myself should I go? Then my brain came in and said "Aiya,the lawyer can settle this 1 lar" but then my heart says 'wat if the lawyer bungles?' so i sat for a long time listening to my logic and illogic. But then my heart won me over and proceeded to walk. Den my legs felt heavy and sat on the front row den i looked at pastor, he looked at me and said "why dun u go in front?" i said" here is enough".
den i proceeded to share with him, i asked him "will the lord take away things from me?" i wanted answers then but pastor could not give me. All this time I thought my tearducts are already dry due to my past but then my tearducts flowed again with tears of fear and anxiety. But then the pastor assured me, den he prayed,brother bernard prayed,holy man prayed. Then pastor wanted to receive Jesus, in my mind i said "HUH!!!" but then i recited the prayer with skeptic.

As the days are closing in the court case,my stress level increased by each day,each day was an agony plus i had to "look after" a young member in church, telling her everything is alrite blah blah blah because her life is in a mess.Den on the nite b4 going to court, i smsed crossover and thanked them being with me and watever the the outcome the the case i thanked them for being my friend. i also thanked them for being lighthouses in my dark life.

so the nxt day i stepped inside the court and looked back and thought "will i come out in chains or come out a free man?" Den we waited, we went in the room blah blah blah. Den the complainant said he only wanted an apology. I thought "HUH!!!!!! like tat onli har!!!"
Then i stepped out of the court FREE!!!! HaHA The charge n case got WITHDRAWN!!!

Its amazing to see how my 2 wks of suffering ended in juz 5-10 mins.10 years,20years,30years or even a lifetime of suffering can be ended juz by accepting Christ.All is possible with Jesus's Blood.The accepting will take only a short while, 30 mins at the most. But the walking with Christ will take a lifetime.

Till now i am still "suspecting" God, but i am thankful tat i got changed from a "hateful" person to a "grateful" person.I am juz glad i got my normal life back and the "rain" is over.